Well, I am not the kind of girl that would tolerate a cheating boyfriend. I had accepted that he cheated on me but that doesn't mean I would stay. I didn't blame myself for the whole shenanigan but definitely I wouldn't loose my self-esteem either over a cheating boyfriend.
I had to go to the the Philippines for just 3 months and this was his trials that life has given him but obviously he failed the test or should I say the temptation was too strong for him to refused even if it means losing his bride-to-be! Letting go of him was the best decision I have ever made.
Let's go back to the continuation of the previous chapter, at this time I just passed Mobile, Alabama. It was only an hour since I left home. Blue Eyes has been calling me a number of times but I intended not to answer his call. I immediately contacted AT&T to dropped the second line of my family plan which is Blue Eyes phone. I didn't have nothing to do with him anymore.
By 1am Saturday, this was only 3 hours since I left home. I have noticed that there was only me, myself and I driving heading towards Hi-way 10 West. I was already way passed downtown New Orleans. I was so scared because it was totally dark. I wanted to continue on driving but also was afraid that I may run out of gas or the car would go idle in the wee hours where no one around. So I decided to find a motel at the next stop.
From far away, I sighted a dim light that seems to look like a small town. When I got there, it was a rinky-dink town and found a dingy motel. I had no choice but to take it. I would not want to be in the road alone.
While inside the shabby motel, Blue Eyes had relentlessly been calling me all night long but this time he was using the land line since I had AT&T disconnected his cellphone. He must have gone crazy for not being able to talk to me since I left him. I finally decided to speak to him. He was asking me what the heck was going on with me and where was I and what I was doing at this very late moment. Simply I told him in a calm voice that I was done with him and nothing he can do to make me come back, and I was not going to deal with his deceitful lying mouth. I told him everything about the hard evidence that I've found that he indeed was cheating on me. I did not want to hear any explanation from him...click!
I hung up on him and it felt so great to be able to stick up for yourself and not letting cheaters manipulate you or use you for their benefits or self greediness. At 330am, you would think that I would be so tired and ready to go to bed finally but oh no! My adrenaline shoot way up high after having convo with Blue Eyes. Instead I got up, took shower and hit the road again by 4am. I haven't had any food in my stomach since I left home but for some reason, I wasn't even feeling the hungry nor thirsty. Mind you, that this was only 3 days since my returned from the Philippines. I should be having a jet lag, tiredness, lack of concentration or motivation but what happened to me was a phenomenal.
Too many things happens all at once and It was overwhelming. Unconsciously, my body and brain were fighting for it and maybe due to the fact that I had been in the darkest days before and it seem to have been able to control my feelings or emotion for the second time around. I knew I was hurting, aching, my soul was bleeding. I was experiencing a feeling of great sorrow and I wanted not to feel it but I am human who can feel pain because my heart just got broken. I was on the road again. Was not really sure if I could reach to my destination which is California of which still 2200 miles away.
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While inside the shabby motel, Blue Eyes had relentlessly been calling me all night long but this time he was using the land line since I had AT&T disconnected his cellphone. He must have gone crazy for not being able to talk to me since I left him. I finally decided to speak to him. He was asking me what the heck was going on with me and where was I and what I was doing at this very late moment. Simply I told him in a calm voice that I was done with him and nothing he can do to make me come back, and I was not going to deal with his deceitful lying mouth. I told him everything about the hard evidence that I've found that he indeed was cheating on me. I did not want to hear any explanation from him...click!
I hung up on him and it felt so great to be able to stick up for yourself and not letting cheaters manipulate you or use you for their benefits or self greediness. At 330am, you would think that I would be so tired and ready to go to bed finally but oh no! My adrenaline shoot way up high after having convo with Blue Eyes. Instead I got up, took shower and hit the road again by 4am. I haven't had any food in my stomach since I left home but for some reason, I wasn't even feeling the hungry nor thirsty. Mind you, that this was only 3 days since my returned from the Philippines. I should be having a jet lag, tiredness, lack of concentration or motivation but what happened to me was a phenomenal.
Too many things happens all at once and It was overwhelming. Unconsciously, my body and brain were fighting for it and maybe due to the fact that I had been in the darkest days before and it seem to have been able to control my feelings or emotion for the second time around. I knew I was hurting, aching, my soul was bleeding. I was experiencing a feeling of great sorrow and I wanted not to feel it but I am human who can feel pain because my heart just got broken. I was on the road again. Was not really sure if I could reach to my destination which is California of which still 2200 miles away.
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